Blessed be the name of the Lord.

I got a full time job!!!! With Kerr-McGee Oil and Gas, the oil company I been interning with in the past two summer, they call me and offer me a full time position, I am just so excited.

Why I am so excited, again, God provided for me, something I don't deserve, something I didn't earn. I remember beginning of the this past summer, I stared my internship, I really wanted to work for this company, but my GPA is only 2.8, I didn't how they going to hire me, they haven't hired anyone with less then a 3.0 GPA, I was worried, then as I was flipping through those memory verse cards, God pointed out to me these.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."- Matthew 22: 36-40

I realized I didn't need to figure out how my life will play out, how everything will work out, instead He says the greatest commandment is to simply love Him, and love people around me as best as I could love myself, that is all. He tells me

"Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes... Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ... and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself."
-Matthew 6:25-34

I look back at my life, I found a pattern, all the best things happened in my life, I did not do anything to earn it, I was given to me, I was chosen.

I look back to the time when I was in China, the friends I had in China, was I much more different from them, not I was not, then why do I deserve to come to America, they did not, I had always been a bad boy in school, gotten bad grades, surely I didn't earn it that way. In fact few year before I come to US, my life was so desperate, that I had thoughts of ending my life to end this all, just then my mom took me to US with her.

I look at how I gotten to UT, it was the only school I applied for, and I was barely in top 25% of our high school class, by march of 2001 I still haven’t heard anything back, it seems to me surly UT will not accept me, so one day in march I decide when I get home I am going to apply for University of Houston, and that night I got home there was acceptance letter from UT.

I looked at how I got my current car, when I got it and I had some fancy way to pay for it, and it didn't work out, I was so desperate, and summer of 2002, I got this call from Kyle Clark, Hall Coordinator of Simkins dorm telling me that he offered me a RA job at Simkins. That paid off my car, and I got to meet Kelly and you all.

I looked at how I got my internships, I was barely in petroleum department for two month, I went to engineering expo, and meet people from Kerr-McGee, I talk to them, they invite me to dinner, then interview, then I got a internship. During my internship I got to meet personally with CEO of the company, presented my summer work to him and senior vp. Was my work so impressive, no, not at all, it was just I happened to meet the right people at the right time, who give me a chance, who helped me.

I look back I see too many coincident of luck, this can't be just all luck, it is so evident that it is God who have been providing for me so abundantly.

I want to live a life, that when people look at me they see I am just filled with God's grace, that they would could not see anything else other than that. I want God to be glorified in every blessing that He pours out.

He pour out blessing so His might power can be demonstrated to this world, that He is God almighty, who make us strong through our weakness. Also so that we can bless others.

I realized the most important thing to life is food and cloth, anything more then that is God's, and he gives and takes away, just like that song says "You give and take away, My heart will choose to say, Lord, blessed be Your name!"

Lord Blessed be Your Name!

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

There will be times of doubt, of difficulty, of trials, but always remember, "faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." And when we ask Lord for strength and wisdom it will be given to us.

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! " -Matthew 7:7-11