Understandings

I just come back from faithwalker conference, the speakers at the conference really spoke to me about one thing, is that I am still very much a prideful person, that God has teach me great things this year, these knowledge are great, yet I feel Satan have used that knowledge inspire pride with in me.

“We know that we all possess knowledge. Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. The man who thinks he knows something does not yet know as he out to know. But the man who loves God is known by God.” 1 Corinthians 8:1-3

God have many times this year given me His words to say to encourage my brothers and sisters, in my heart I know that it is not any of my words that encouraged my brothers and sisters. Yet for some reason I start to feel like “of course I will always have something to say, that I am special and I deserve all of his wisdom that he entrusted to me” but that is not true, it is God who has all the wisdom and it is He who will always have something to say to each one of us, I am lucky that God entrust some of his wisdom to me, I did not deserve any of it, yet out of His grace and love He is able to use me, a sinner that had rebelled against him.

This wrong attitude have caused me to be prideful in my diminutive “knowledge”, and cause me to rebuke harshly to my brothers who loves me with their heart, caused me not serve my brothers as much as I could have, and sometimes sined against my brothers with anger in my heart.

“My dear brothers; take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to be come angry, for a man’s anger does not bring about righteous life that God desires.” James 1:19-20

I have always wanted to be use by God to do great things, to make disciple of all nations, to be great for God’s sake. But if I can’t be faithful with little knowledge given by God, how can I be entrusted with greater knowledge. And if I want to be great I must serve my brothers and sisters with all my heart, learn to be entrusted with small things, just as my Lord have done for me.

“Jesus called them together and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be your slave- just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”- Matthew 20:25-28

And that is the only way I can be great for God’s sake.